From Darkness Gather Light: How To Work Through Insecurity

If you think you should be done with inner darkness, that you should have outgrown it by now, you are obviously not beyond it if it still occurs to you.

If you judge yourself as inadequate or in some way “Wrong” for feeling this badly at this stage of your life, you only compound the darkness and deepen the divide between you and the higher light you seek.

That is not the correct or most practical way of going through the darkness.

Inner darkness is a gift! It’s a gift if you know how to receive it!

It is a gift because it is your path – your tunnel, really – to a life of greater freedom, joy, fulfillment and lightness.

It is a gift if you know how to go through it – or better yet, how to GROW through it.

Whether your inner darkness gets triggered because your life suddenly looks more like a disaster than a triumph, or because your future looks more dangerous than secure, or because your past comes back to haunt you with feelings of deep regret – the gift of inner darkness is priceless, when you go through it as a learning adventure.

Go through it without resistance. Examine your experience of inner darkness with direct, steady observation.

Examine your thoughts and feelings. Make them more conscious. Try to see exactly what you are feeling and exactly what you are thinking as long as you feel that way. Try to perceive the deepest, underlying thought or mental vision that is triggering your emotional pain.

Try to touch the very core of your inner darkness when it is upon you.

That is the first step toward transforming it into greater light.

Becoming aware of it will not relieve it. The pain is going to remain painful and really nothing makes inner darkness any easier to go through when it is deep.

If you are looking for a way out, if you are looking for a way turn your pain into pleasure – the pleasure of relief – you are going through it incorrectly, missing the point and missing out on the gift.

The dark pain of emotional darkness is something to go through, not to escape from.

The most common mistake made when people feel depressed, angry or insecure is to attempt to manipulate their external circumstances to solve their internal misery.

But this proves futile. You need to be internally free of emotional darkness to apply your full power to produce the conditions you want in life.

Inner darkness, including feelings of dread, drain you of your power. It extreme states, they make you face your powerlessness.

Just take the blows. Experience the pain. Actually invite all the pain of emotional darkness deep within you.

The next step is to trust it.

Trust that, despite the fact that this inner darkness feels so terrible, something quite wonderful is actually taking place.

The situation can be compared to the person at death’s inevitable threshold. He fears his passing. The loss of all he has known is terrifying. He fears for his loved ones. But then, the next moment, when his struggle for life proves futile, he finds himself in a heavenly dimension. He feels set free, not forlorn.

This is how inner darkness works, when you go through it correctly. The less you resist it, the more good the darkness actually does.

When worry keeps you awake at night, stop struggling for some life-solution to rescue you. Just go through all of this fear and anguish that arises inside. And trust that as much as it hurts, that’s how much good is coming from it.

With the morning light you will likely find yourself feeling free. No more despair. You have hope once again. And you feel at peace.

You may feel somewhat disoriented after the wave of inner darkness passes. It may take you a while to get clear about your goals.

But you also have to know how to deal with the light when the darkness leaves.

Don’t cling to that darkness. Don’t make yourself live in it until you make some external change in your circumstances. Don’t return to it just because your circumstances have not changed in any visible way that is obviously meaningful.

Just live in the inner freedom of peace, joy and the lightness of being.

You see, you don’t have to worry to make your life work out. On the contrary, the more you worry, the more you find to worry about.

But sometimes we find that worry comes upon us like an inner tzumami wave of painful dread. Or we find that feelings of inadequacy swallow us up. Or feelings of regret. Sometimes we feel all of that darkness in one bout with inner pain.

Don’t MAKE yourself miserable, but when misery is upon you, work through it in this new, conscious way.

That new way involves observing the experience without resistance, trying to penetrate its inner depths with your perception, and trusting that you are undergoing some wonderful, great process.

As you examine the darkness long enough, you will see that it is indeed very much akin to the fear of death. But the death you fear is not real. It is imaginary. It is the death of your false self. You are losing the ability to hold onto your false-self, that role you have been trying in vain to live up to. You are losing your mask.

Let go of the mask. Let yourself be. Let yourself be without judgment. Even if you fear that your children will go hungry, there is no doubt some self-judgment involved in that fear.

As you give up trying to prove yourself to yourself you allow another kind of birth process. That death process turns into a birth process. You are giving birth, giving your life to, your real self. The false self is cracking open like an egg shell, permitting your real self to fly free.

Going through inner darkness is not easy and it is not pleasant and it is unavoidable until it is all done with. It is common for people to find themselves right back in it again and again after they thought they were done with it.

Be patient with the inner darkness. The more impatiently you struggle against it, the more powerful its hold, like quicksand.

It is vital that you stay very alert throughout the process, to recognize the instant the darkness has lifted, or eased up.

If you are not alert you might presume that you are still stuck in it, and be holding onto it when you could be letting it go.

Haven’t you wondered why it is that life mismatches your expectations?

Life is designed to release you from dread.

Those times when you wanted money, but it didn’t show up until the very last minute, that is what was going on.

You were being put through the ringer to purge yourself of the inner darkness and the ego-attachments that keep your real self in chains.

You were going through the sorrow that you need to go through to experience the more free, joyful and secure life that you want.

When the media talks about a global economic crisis going on, what it is really talking about is an inner fear-crisis going on in people’s hearts and minds.

You can look at ANY economy as nothing but problems or nothing but opportunities.

Look for the opportunities and you will find them.

But you may not find them as quickly as you want them.

You may have to change your UNDERSTANDING of opportunity.

You see, you ALWAYS get the opportunity that is best for you.

Every moment presents you with your golden opportunity.

NOT getting the opportunity you want, when you want it, is actually your greatest opportunity for right now.

It is exactly what you need to go through for all that you REALLY want, the joy, faith, freedom, purpose, fulfillment, love that you REALLY are after.

Whatever you want that new job for or that new mate for is happiness, security, freedom. You want an INNER change from any outer change that you pursue.

NOT getting the opportunity you want when you want gives you your best opportunity for that INNER change, the change of real meaning.

Getting a new job that keeps you feeling unfulfilled and more deeply insecure than you have ever felt is not what you want.

Getting a new relationship with a beautiful partner that leaves you feeling unloved and unlovable is not what you want.

Getting new, giant dream house that keeps you up at night plagued with nightmare worries is not what you are after.

When the things you want DO happen on time, it is just right for you. That is just what you need to go through for all you want.

Explore your happy feelings, your feelings of love, your feelings of positive anticipation just as you examine your negative feelings when you go through the darkness correctly.

It is conscious experience that turns what is into all you real want it to be.

Make your periods of light more conscious and you will see the darkness underneath that still needs dispelling.

When you feel excited because you anticipate something you want, you set yourself up to feel deprived and desperate when what you do NOT want happens.

In other words, you set yourself up for another bout with the darkness.

Whatever happens in life is simply what you need to be going through right now for the inner liberation of your real self in a life free of fear.

So be ambitious and be persevering. And when your goals do not come to fruition on the time table of your desires, try to see what IS happening as the real opportunity that you have been working for and praying for.

One of the great freedoms in life is the freedom from a negative expectation.

As you go through your bouts with inner darkness consciously, without resistance, with trust, you gain this freedom.

You do not HAVE to dwell in the negative mental scenarios of a future you do not want to happen. As you observe your thoughts and feelings, you will see that your thoughts are just thoughts. You poison your present when live in fearful thoughts of the future.

You don’t have to poison your present with fearful thinking in order to create a great life.

Living in peace, and joy, in stress-free alert awareness in the present moment give you all of the fulfillment you are really looking for. You can live in that fulfillment right now. You don’t have to wait. And the more you put it off, waiting until some external change occurs in your life, the longer you make yourself wait for it.

When events occur that you feel tempted to get nervous about, to feel insecure about, you will find that you don’t have to get as nervous and insecure, that you can trust that all will work out without getting all worked up over what is going on.

This freedom is part of the gift of going through your bouts of inner darkness without resistance, consciously, while trusting that something wonderful is actually happening to you.

Trusting that something wonderful is happening to you when it FEELS like something terrible is happening to you does not happen with the snap of the fingers.

But as you do your best to trust in this as you go through your inner darkness consciously and without resistance, it will become easier and easier to do.

Things that used to frighten or upset you will become no big deal. You will feel confident that things will work out and you will not have to dwell on fearful imaginary scenes in your head of things NOT working out. You will be freer to live your life with joy and inner peace.

Paying closer attention to your present moment experience is the key to making the very best choices in the present moment.

As you practice being more aware in the now you will begin to see how every thought, every emotion, every word you say and hear, and every action you take is actually a choice.

As you see yourself making the choice to think a certain way, you will be able to stop and choose a more constructive, even more healing, way of thinking.

This awakening to higher conscious control of what you do with your power is part of the gift that comes from going through inner darkness in the correct way.

In a sense it’s not really a gift, but a higher level of freedom, power and responsibility that you earn by going through your darkness as your greatest opportunity.

Inner darkness is really no better of an opportunity than a more pleasurable experience. The point is that whatever is happening to you in the now, this very moment, is your greatest possible opportunity.

There is nothing greater that you could want to happen to you, because what is happening is your gateway to all you want to be happening.

Don’t resist sorrow and don’t resist joy. Don’t resist love and don’t resist loneliness. Just stay conscious of what you are going through in the present moment, paying particular attention to what is going on inside you, in the dimension of your thoughts, emotions, desires, urges, motivations, intuitions.

As you make your inner world more conscious you grow less and less dependent upon any outer circumstance changing.

It becomes more and more obvious that there really IS no outer world.

Whatever you THINK is going on in your life is just that, it’s a thought.

As you gain the freedom to choose your thoughts you gain the freedom to choose your experiences. You can live more and more in the experience of freedom from a negative thought.

Whatever your current circumstances, worrying about your future does not make you more effective at averting the future you worry about.

You bring about what you think about.

You need your mind to be worry-free to envision the way you want things to be.

But envisioning the way you want things to be is not the goal either, because you can imagine how you want things to be while feeling anxious, insecure, frustrated, impatient.

Enter peace in the present and from peace, and within peace, work on manifesting your greatest dreams.

Let your inspiration guide you. Trust that every desire of your heart will be fulfilled as you do your best work in the present, aimed at manifesting your goals.

Focus on the task at hand, on doing your best job right here, right now, making the best choices right now based on your understanding of what you want and where you want your choices to lead you.

Avoid becoming too attached to your visualizations of the future that you want. Your present is where you are. Make THIS MOMENT a fulfilling experiencing by recognizing how your choices in the present moment are impacting you.

You don’t have to make youself happy, you just have to recognize how you are making yourself miserable so you can stop.

You don’t have to make yourself miserable for the life you want to live. Making yourself miserable is the exact opposite of what you want to make of yourself. So don’t do it.

The world today seems to count on fear to survive, when it is faith that sets them free.

Living in faith you are free to live in love, in joy, in peace right now.

The faith I am referring to here is faith in life, and in the power in charge of your life.

Your difficulties are just as much gifts and blessings as the most pleasant experience you have ever had.

Your difficulties give you the opportunity to see how much more difficult you make your life than it needs to be.

When holding onto control of your life seems like a struggle, let g o.

When controlling your life and making things happen feels like a burden, let go.

You don’t have to work yourself so hard that you work your spirit right into the ground.

Practice trusting the way things are and trusting the way things will be, as you practice living in alert awareness of the present moment so that you can see where you are directing your life. You will see how you are creating the experience you are presently having.

As you create a beautiful present moment you can expand your influence to create more and more of what you want in the future.

But you need to learn how to relate with NOT getting what you want as your greatest opportunity in the moment that THAT happens.

Inner darkness comes in waves. In life, all conditions alternate like breathing, like seasons, like the ocean waves. You go through high cycles and you go through low cycles and you go through in-between cycles.

You inner darkness will not last. It will pass. And the more consciously you pass through it, the less you resist it, the more you trust it, the more quickly it will set you free at a higher level of joy and liberation than you have ever known.

You are not your thoughts about yourself. Your life is not your thoughts about your life. Yet you react to your thoughts as if they were the truth about you and the truth about your life, which makes them feel like the truth to you.

As you see your thoughts of yourself as just your thoughts, and practice NOT IDENTIFYING with thoughts that bring you down, you will find that you really are not those thoughts.

Don’t live in anguished thinking about your life. When you drop those thoughts you drop your anguish and life becomes a grand adventure.

But please remember that going through your inner darkness properly will not make it pain-free. It may even make it feel more painFUL.

But you can take it. You can take it’s blows like Muhammad Ali taking the blows of Joe Frazier using his rope-a-dope.

You will be pumelled at times by the inner darkness of anxiety and unhappiness. Take it. Now you know how. It’s really all about trusting in what is, trusting what is beyond your control. For it IS a gift!

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